Entirely Emily: Quiet People

I'd be the one on the left.........hello?..over here..

Introverts Unite! I would start a support group but that would involve getting together and talking... and that would be one quiet meeting. {giggle}

I've always been the quiet one. The only that would sit on the edge of any gathering and just listen. But really I wanted to talk, wanted to be part of the conversation. I still do. I do have alot to say (durr...I blog now). I know a lot of stuff. I've tried to make myself more outgoing as I've gotten older....watching other people and trying to be like them. Having kids pretty much forces you to be more outgoing because you have to talk to other mommies to set up play dates and things for the kids to do. It's still a work in progress for me.

Yes, my idea of a good time is:
- to sit at home and blog
- read
-go for a walk
-organize something
-go have a cup of coffee
- just come to your house, talk and have a drink.
- crafting something
-hanging out with a small group of people (4-10) at some one's house

I went out a lot in my 20s, again, pushing my introvert envelope but having kids and being a SAHM has put me comfortably where I belong. I'm probably not going to go back to my drinking/going out every Friday night/hungover story kinda life.

It's funny how as a quiet introverted person I always feel this pressure of having to be more extroverted as if being who I am isn't a good thing or not looked at in a good way. I don't think there's anything wrong with YOU if YOU want to go out every week and have tons of events and tons of friends. Go. Have a ball , just don't judge me for not wanting to do the same.

There are a lot of times that I don't want to go to certain events or with certain people because I don't like how I feel there. There is always the loud, outgoing person who talks the WHOLE time usually about themselves or to the one person they're trying to suck up to. The only thing I ever get asked is " How are the girls doing?" Really, that's all you think I have to talk about? I try and make conversation with the outgoing ones and it ends up being all about them. And that's not much fun for me. Why would it be?

Others have told me, oh just jump in, you have to interrupt us. I don't feel comfortable butting into the conversion (sorry..that's just not me). When I do try that , I feel like everyone is looking at me with the"who does she think she is?" look. Again, trying to make me like you isn't going to work.

I wonder what my two girls are going to be like: me or more outgoing. I feel like K is the awesome outgoing one now and S is the quiet one with the awesome personality that no one gets to see. No matter who they turn out to be, I want them to be happy like all moms do. I want people to like them for who they are not who they " could " be.

I just want the loud, talkative people of the world to look around sometimes...see the quiet people standing around..come up and talk to us. You won't believe what we have to say. You might meet someone really cool , learn something really cool or make a really great friend.