Mommy? Does your tummy hurt again?

I wish my belly was this cute and nice from I heart guts

I'm not sure what to tell her. My tummy always seems to hurt.  And of course it's not just my stomach , it's more like my whole intestinal tract but I'm not going to try and explain that to  my almost 4 year old.  It's been going on everyday since sometime in June/July of 2011.



A cute little small intestine from I heart guts

 At first I though it was due to sad family events, three in three months, or strange hormonal changes from almost stopping and then starting breastfeeding little S.

But no matter what I seem to do.. no matter what I seem to eat... nothing makes me feel better. I usually feel ok while I sleep but then I wake up  have breakfast and the cycle begins again.

Lie down on the  ground on your back and then have someone you know dance a jig on your abdomen. Or better yet, have them continually punch you in the gut  unto you feel bruised from the inside out.  And that's  everyday for me.  All I want to do is lay down with a heating pad everyday but  having two adorable children who need everything from you right now makes that impossible.

I went to see  my primary care and a GI doctor who did the following test:

- Stool sample (I know, gross) looking for bad fungi and weird parasites
- Blood samples to check for
      - Anemia
      - Thyroid conditions
      - Malsorbtion? problems
      - Celiac  Disease
- Upper endoscopy
-Lower Endoscopy
- Small Intestine Biopsy


All of which came back negative for everything they were looking for including cancer, which is a very good thing. But now I kinda wish they had found something treatable something that would make me feel better. I get a little relief from seeing an acupuncturist  here in Maplewood names Christine at WellBody Clinic. Her main focus is fertility  and women's issues but she treats everything. But it still hasn't fixed the problem.

 My GI doc still want to so the test where they make you swallow a camera in a pill and it takes picture all the way down to see every square inch of everything ( apparently the upper and lower gi does NOT reach everywhere). After that  they want to run a fructose/lactose screen , to see if I'm allergic to that and then after that I think they want to do a full food allergy panel on me.  I will do almost any test they want. I will not eat any foods they tell me not to.  I will do almost anything to feel better again.

I want to be a fully functioning mommy.  I don't want to worry about where the bathroom is all the time.  I don't want to worry about where or what I will eat everyday and if  it is hurting me.  I hate being scared of food not knowing if I'm doing this to myself.

 I'd give anything to be able to eat all the good foods I want again and occasionally have a bad one but not be writhing in pain for a week after.

I just want to be me again.