I've been having one of those days...weeks....past few years. You know....when you don't feel anything's quite right but you can't put your finger on it.
When all you can see is the dark and not the light. Even though you see glimpses of it....it never quite stays long enough. I have no real, huge, life changing reason to feel this way. Just a bunch of little things that over time add up to be very heavy to hold.
You start questioning everything..your self, your faith...your life. Why are you here? What is your purpose?
I have these two beautiful girls and I don't know.....
.... how to tell them that life is good and full of happiness when I don't see it myself.
.....how to tell them what do to do if they feel left out included or lonely becuase I still don't
.....how to tell them what to do when they feel less than
.....how to tell them what to do when people say they are your friends but then don't call, email, Facebook, talk to you in person, etc.
I'm struggling right now. I don't want it to impact them. I want them to be innocent and happy. I'm not trying to be prefect and happy all the time but I want to help them navigate life and how can I do that when I can't see through the clouds enough to see the path ahead?
God give me strength.